JAPAN 2015 / Part 1

Oh wow guys, long time no see!

Soooooooooooo - I've been to Japan right? - so since there won't be a video (because for me it was holiday and I didn't want to go out with a camera all the time, just wanted to enjoy my week), at least I try to summarize my trip here.
Unfortunately I deleted nearly all the photos I've taken there so...I will post only those, I still got!
(click on them to large them)

Day 1 - Travel & dying of fever
It started on May 7th - got my flight at 13pm I think and arrived without any troubles in Helsinki.
Got only one hour to spend there so it was really easy and relaxed.
There were like only Japanese people at the Gate to Tokyo and I was sitting there with my Germany Jersey like "no, fuk u!" haha
One guy talked to me and said, that for a German, I look really beautiful.
Ah yeah, thx, I forgot Germans are ugly lol
Anyway, I took a sleeping pill and...yeah slept like the whole 11 hours haha
I woke up like every hour and tried to stay awake, play Nintendo or whatever but nope - too tired.
Also my throat started to hurt really badly and I missed like one of two meals in plane because I was sleeping the whole time haha
The Japanese woman next to me wore a face mask and slippers for the whole flight lol

So yeah, I was really tired when I arrived in Tokyo.
Since Narita Airport got free WiFi, my friend Eric (I stayed at his place for the whole trip) contacted me that he took the day off and I told him, that I'm on my way.
"Can't be that hard to find", I thought. WRONG.
I took my train ticket, waited and of course missed my train haha

All in all that trouble took me a fucking hour til I finally got it all and I arrived at Osaki.
Just needed to find his home, been there last year so I
was pretty optimistic.
He also sent me a screenshot of the google maps route.
First I took the totally wrong way, asked a police man, who of course didn't speak english and all I got from his help was, that I have to go on the other side of the station.
So yeah, that all took me like an hour again, it was super hot, I had my heavy suitcase with me and I was totally lost. So I took a Taxi. I was super pissed, throw my suitcase on the backseat and took place.
It started after I gave him the adress and I swear, it wasn't even a kilometer haha
The price didn't even rise, I only had to pay the basic fees of 780円, fucking shit xD
I barely remembered that place, walked to the apartment (which of course didn't have names at the doors) and knocked. No ones opened. I did it again, and again.
Suddenly I heard a "hey" from behind and saw him coming, pretty relaxed and smoking.
"Thought I could catch you out at the station but didn't find you" - "Ah yeah thx, u know names at the door help." He just laughed, took my suitcase and walked in.
I took a shower, changed my clothes and we shortly went out for grocery shopping.
I fell in bed after and took a nap. He still sat at the same place when I woke up again.
"You feel better, how's your throat?" - "Still hurting..."
And I swear, I never had a pain like that before, swallowing was hardest thing ever and I wasn't able to eat as well.
He made me a hot tea with honey and checked my forehead several times for fever.
Idk if I had one but it felt like.
So this night he was about to go out with friends, celebrating his birthday again in Japan (he spend his actual birthday at his homeplace Australia) and I was a crying baby in his bed haha
He asked me for a soup many times but I din't want to bother him, since he was already late.
"If you want soup, I make you a soup", I just nodded and he did. I fell asleep again and he left.
I woke up once, ate a bit of the soup and continued sleeping
I don't remember when he came home.



Day 2 - Rabbit and grow fat & fuck yeah pizza and movies
I felt better the next day.
My throat was still hurting as fuck but at least I felt better so I met up with Nia.
She's there as a student at University now for half a year!
We planned going to a Cat-Café but when we arrived it was closed - like really closed, completely empty. What a pity.
So we went to a pharmacy to buy something for my throat - she gave me pills and I swear, they were for having a cold not exactly for the throat. But whatever, better than nothing. We also bought some drops at Family Mart.
After we went to a Rabbit Café which called "Ra.a.g.f. - Rabbit and grow fat" haha
There you pay for half an hour or an hour, get a free drink and you can also buy fresh vegetables to feed the rabbits.
You can choose one to run around but the others have to stay in their cages (nevertheless you can pet them) so actually it's really cruel for the rabbits.
Anyway, we selected the super fat one haha
Paid for half an hour and left.
She took me to her dorm area which is really beautiful.
I met all the students there and we cooked dinner (Pasta lol)

So after I took the train back "home" and spend the evening with Eric. We ordered Pizza and watched movies, super lazy Saturday evening.
Later he went out again but I was tired, still felt a bit sick and clubbing is only allowed with 20 and I'm 19 lol. So anyway, I was still a bit jet lagged, felt asleep pretty early and only barely remember when he came back but it was early in the moring...around 6? haha I just woked up when I went to bed but continued sleeping after.






Day 3 - Asakusa & Akihabara

Soooo - like I said all my photos are gone but this day Eric took me to Asakusa and Akihabara.
It was super full though it Sunday. I'm not used to this, streets in Germany are empty on that day haha
So anyway, he really gave everything to be a good tour guide, which was pretty cute xD
Showed and told me about nearly everything, even just random things we were passing.
When you come to Asakusa you pass through a long street with random shops on both sides - it's a bit like an bazaar.
And after you arrive at the temple which looks really beautiful!
We just walked there a bit, looked at everything til we went back to the "normal street" and just walked, searching for something to eat. Our breakfast, other peoples lunch haha
I normally don't really like japanese food, you might be already know haha so he was about to find at least ANYTHING I should like or try xD
We walked for an hour, talked and somehow it came up that I never ate a burger or steak in my life.
He, as a native Australian, just stopped walking and looked at me really pale-faced lmao.
"I just changed our plan, we're gonna eat burger today" - "Can't we just go to KFC...?" 
So that was the plan but we were so hungry, that we ended up at a small restaurant and I ate curry rice haha "a little bit japanese" lol
After we made our way to Akihabara.
On the way we saw a Gyaru girl with a "hakuna matata" tattoo above her butt lmao
We silently looked at it and as fast as we've been around the corner we burst out laughing
"Did she have a-" - "YEAH I WAS JUST ABOUT TO SAY THAT" - "OMG!!" - "DAMN! Can we go back that was absolutely worth a photo!!" (he's collecting photos of weird things he sees in japan lol)
The crazy shit of japan guys...
So anyway, the real crazy shit comes now haha
Whoever told me, Akihabara is only the Anime and Manga nerd area fucking lied.
It is full with porn and other weird things I never wanted to see lmao
There was a fucking cuddle café lol
A place, men go to, to rest their head on a cute girls legs and ew haha
also a 5 floors sex and costume shop haha
And for my luck there was a...I don't remember parade so...don't ask me why but thousand of old men in string-tanga lmao
I had the biggest cultural shock ever haha
I was like "SHIT I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR ASSES OR BALLS OR WHATEVER STOP" and Eric was just laughing about me haha
Oh, and while I was holding my phone in my hand I accidentally took photos of Eric's legs and suddenly I also zoomed HAHAHA so I had like 6 photos of his legs coming closer and closer til it was only his ass haha
I'm so sad those photos are gone, we laughed about it for hours lol
So whatever, we left Akihabara again and went back home.
It was an exhausting day and all I wanted to do was to sleep - he also, since he had to work the other day haha. So we just cuddled up in bed and slept like babys.

Behind the scenes of Linsenfinder

Hello everyone!

Today I visited Linsenfinder! ヽ(＾Д＾)ﾉ
It is...let's say the biggest german shop for Crazy contactlenses or Circlelenses.
So basically perfect for everyone in Europe!

I was kinda nervous before and I went there with a friend but when we arrived we were welcomed SO friendly, it is unbelievable!
Everything they told and showed us was pretty interesting and I learned a lot more about the shop in general.
Some informations I want to share with you so you know better about the shop!

At first it is a family business - the whole family is helping and working there a little!
Tobias is the boss of everything and his little sister led us around a little.
Here is everything sorted in boxes - lenses, cases and other things!
(there is much more stored in the basement, I was really stunned)

Then it was really interesting that they put in everything by themself. 
Every pair of lenses and cases and things - they put in everything in envelopes with love for you.
I really admire this work! It is awesome!
                             Whatever they were REALLY super friendly - we got some coffee and cake, talked a lot, talked about new lenses ( :P ) and things.

I know this is a pretty short entry but this was a kinda important information I wanted to share with you because I was so stunned of everything!
I love this shop in every single way and have only best wishes for it to become a much bigger shop world wide! 




















Shop: https://www.linsenfindershop.de/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Linsenfinder?ref=stream


 

Girugamesh concert 2014

Yay! - today i wanna tell you about the Girugamesh concert in Berlin (07.06.14).

It was somehow kinda stressful because we nearly missed our train in Hamburg at 10.30am but everything went out fine.

Unfortunately the train was SO full - we had to sit on the floor for 2-3 hours -_-'
I always thought it only takes like 2 hours to drive to Berlin but nope.
So we had to change train in...Schwerin I think.
This time we tried to make a lot of photos because...we somehow don't make enough photos of our trips :<
So Yasemin took her little camera with her and we made some random photos xD

              

(I think this Blogentry will have more photos than text xDD)

Anyway we arrived in Berlin! I've been there once when we traveled to the LBM but...damn the central station is SO big dear Jesus!

We felt like real tourists xD

That was - when we still thought Berlin is a really nice city :')

So we met up with Nia bc she actually comes from Berlin but lives in Hamburg now and stayed at her parents place.
So since we didn't buy a "VIP Ticket" we had enooouugh time - we wanted to stay in the back so we drove to the J-Store in Berlin for taking some Purikuras :>

          

After we decided to go to the hall because there was nothing to do haha.
It was SO full and hot oh my god...
we were already done when we arrived the venue - SO many people - it was sold out!!
so we sat down anywhere and just chilled - listening to music, talking, somking - stuff like this!

A chinese guy came up and we wondered if it is a staff or something?!
Anyway he asked us to take photos of us - he was so nice and friendly he even knew some german haha cutie.
Here are some photos he made - nice neee??

 

And when the entry started and everyone was in hysteric we still sat there, with a stranger who was interested in what we are doing - he gave us some tips about the hall and things - even if he looked really strange and we thought he was drunk as fuck he was really friendly :D
I gave him a cigarette and told him to sit down.

so when we entered the hall we first went to the smoking area (which was half outside but with easychairs and things) and smoked hahaha
suddenly Shuu and Ryo came up to smoke there ahahah
Domi kicked me like "omg ryo is so small" and I was like " LOOK AT SHUU'S FUCKING AFRO THIS IS AWESOME!" haha
well yeah...we went to the concert hall back and it started like...2 minutes later haha

We of course headbanged and started a baby moshpit back there and...suddenly after 2 songs amy came FROM THE 3 ROW BACk to us and yelled "you come to the fucking moshpit in the middle...NOWW!" -
in 0.216 seconds I was like "OKAY OMG!!" - so we all fighted through the audience to the middle of the hall and...THEN EVERYTHING ESCALATED QUICKLY.
I am not used to boys going to J-rock concerts - so here they fucking rammed us with all of their power - I was so in ecstasy I didn't notice but when I think about it now, it really hurt and my whole body is blue hahaha
We went back for like 5 minutes to get new power and then in started again.
But suddenly I didn't feel good at all and I've got the feeling of nausea ;;
I took a look at nia with the hand in front of my mouth - then I left, ran to toilet and vomited ;A;
I was so done, staggered to the bar in the smoking area and the woman gave me water.
I sat down on a chair, a friend came next to me and talked things I don't even remember anymore and I was like "don't get me wrong, I know this might look strange now...but I feel really sick and have to lay up my legs..." - so I laid down on the dirty floor and put my feet up the chair.
A security came and asked if everything was okay and I sad yes - 2 Minutes later I asked my friend to bring back the security - so 2-3 minutes later a paramedic came - he measured my blood pressure and it seemed really low, I don't remember - He did this several times but it didn't get better so a doctor came.
Also my friends came! - they knelt down next to me, stroke back my wet hair because I was sweating as fuck, put cold pads in my neck and hold my hand - they took care so cute for me instead of going back to the hall like I told them several times! I swear I have the best friends on this planet!
Amy went down to me "what are you doooing??" and I just smiled "fuck it, when the encore starts I am in the moshpit again!"
Lol nope.
The doctor gave me some medicine for my blood pressure but it didn't get better so at the end, after laying there for...like an hour idk, I had to lay down on the couch and they gave me an infusion.
When they put the fucking needle (which already was for kids because my veins are so small) in my arm I looked to my friends because this did fucking hurt (the doctor was so careless omg) and they smiled at me spasmodically hahaha
I was so done but doctore yelled at me over and over again to don't shut my eyes (I did it the whole time lol).
Then I noticed that Girugamesh was playing "Kowarete iku sekai" - I looked to domi panically she just smiled soothingly and moved her lips to the lyrics. My friends where smiling and me, i closed my eyes and also moved my lips to the lyrics. We all sang deep in our heart together. (does that sounds gay...?!)

The concert was over and everyone went in to take their stuff from wardrobe - unfortunately i laid there so EVERY FUCKING ONE LOOKED AT ME LIKE I WAS AN ALIEN HAHAHA
I laid there for like an hour because the infusion worked so slow with that baby needle :<
they already tossed out all the people - only Yasemin was allowed to still stay with me.

Suddenly Ryo, Shuu and Nii came in to smoke.
Shuu directly came to us and asked if everything is okay - I smiled at him and told him in japanese, that everything is fine now!
He smiled and went back. The doctor said, that I am the lucky one - meeting them like this without paying more, I laughed.

They were half naked and played with ther towels like little kids - it was fun watching them.

Finally I was able to sit again and they took off all the shit.
I should wait 10 more minutes they said and they went away. I did and was happy to finally go back to my friends - we passed the band and Shuu smiled, waving his hand like a little gayboy and said "bye bye!!" I thanked them for the great concert anyway and they smiled.

WOW - everything was so stressful but finally I was with my friends again after ;A;


3 Problems.
I was hungry - I needed to pee REALLY badly bc of that infusion shit - I WANTED TO FUCKING SMOKE BUT MY FRIENDS DIDN'T LET ME.

So we went to a kebab house, ate something and I went to toilet.
Unfortunately I still felt sick and wasn't really able to ate :<
But to smoke ! xD

And now comes the part where I have to say - I FUCKING HATE BERLIN.
There was NOTHING open at the central station - we couldn't eat or drink or just sit down at a warm place.
First we sat outside, then inside on benches and tried to sleep ( I even did, when i woke up my friends wasn't still there and i panicked xD)
so...at sunday 4.25 am we went back to hamburg - it was exhausting but we arrived at 9.30am!

No matter what happened, for ME the concert was awesome. Also the Setlist and also the band was!
I have to thank everyone for this great thing!!

Heidi. Concert 2014 ٩(•̤̀ᵕ•̤́๑)

Guuuuuuuuys!

So I didn't post something about the Miyavi concert or..at least about my trip to London in general bc..when I took a week time I nearly forgot everything I actually did there so writing about now is really hard...
SOOOOOOOOOO I decided to write something about yesterday (17.04.14) night!

I went to the Heidi. ( ↑ if you don't know them, here they are! ↑) concert yesterday in Cologne (you might know that I live in Hamburg so driving to Cologne at first was a horrortrip of 7 hours of bus driving (;¬_¬))
Since I don't know my way around there in cologne it was a torture to find the stage on my own somehow (I met up with my friend Karu then)
I was quite nevous because...I REALLY adore Heidi. for so many years now - even if I actually listen to much harder music I always kept listening to Heidi. since I found them in...2008 I think...?
So for 5 years I annoyed my friends with "maybe Heidi. will come to Germany one day!! ;A;" Shit and now...FINALLY - it was kinda like a dream for me.
But when I sat there in front of the location and saw the band taking out their equipment I...realized that this was real.
I bought a VIP ticket so I had the pleasure of a meet and greet before...
I made a Fangift //shy hiding behind something ;;

 

Some German candy and a fanletter where I wrote (thanks to Nia for helping me!) that I love their music now for like 6 years and I and my other Fans are so happy that they came to Europe now - stuff like this (It's embarrassing to translate it word by word now  ಥ⌣ಥ) )
So when Kuzu and I entered the hall and went downstairs for Meet & Greet I inwardly died lol
A woman told us, that it is a Meet and Greet and we DO have time to talk with the band because everyone just took a photo and left but...guess what...
When it was my turn, I shy laughend and went to them.
Kiri (Drums) smiled at me, took a look at my shirt (actually my boobs, I swear.) and read out 'Tokyo' which was written there...WHY KIRI WHY?
He's like my favorite and I just smiled "Yeah..."
So the whole band was like "eehhhh tokyooo??" and I had to turn around so they can all take a look look at my super cool shirt aka boobs lol
So...I learnd the sentence : " 桐さんのとなりに立ちたいです！" (I want to stand next to Kiri-san) for like...10 hours before but of course u all know me - i wasn't able to say that so I stood next to Kohsuke and...Yoshihiko. Look at my happy face omg I am done haha

So when they took the photo I went upstairs to the stage - first row, Kousukes side! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ
Next to us were girls standing who was drinking the whole time and I was...kinda pissed - but I will tell in detail later..
The first act was "Unsayn" - a german 'girlband' - I was skeptical about that because I saw them in 2013 at the ChisaiiCon and I was like "lol nope.."
When they played their first song everyone was just...doing things on their own - some people even turned around that they were with their back to the band - excuse me but this is so rude??!?!...before the second song started Kuzu looked at me "let's escalate!!" - I felt so sorry for the band because they aren't that bad and just bc they aren't asian or things it doesn't mean you don't have to notice them bc they are there for promotion excuse meee??
So I took of my cute pigtails and ribbons and...HERE WE ARE - HEAADBAAANG!!
It was so much fun and I remember that a girl right behind me slammed so hard against my coccyx with her head that I wasn't sure for 5 seconds who got more hurt xD
After I turned around to her and she was OK, so I was.
They only played 3 songs so...after...HEIDI.!

I was really worried about..if everything will work...if fans will have fun and go crazy and things like that...
And I was kinda...not in the mood after headbanging for 3 songs to just do Furi and jump bc actually I hate it xD

So when Heidi. came up on stage I was SO positively suprised!
Fans did everything - everyone had their own space NO ONE was pushing and shit, NO ONE even tried to touch them or something, when the band bend forward the crowd, everyone took back the hand to don't touch them in an impolite way - it was awesome!
I never never never never never saw a THAT disciplined audience like that!

And I NEVER saw a SO friendly band in such a good mood - you was able to see that they were having a lot of fun and not only doing it for money or shit.

Yoshihiko also learned a little german - it was SO cute when he first took a look on his little paper and then "habut...iha...supasss??" (are you having fun?) and things like this.

When they took their little breaks to drink we all went to little annoying japanese fangirls for fun HAHAHA.

I was like "KIIIRI - KIRIKIRIKIRIKIRI SAAAN DAISUKIII!!!" in highed pitched voice and somehow he really noticed me, stood up, took a look at me, smiled and waved his hand - that was actually not planned XD

Kohsuke once took a look at me and smiled, I was singing, took a randomly look up to him and he screamed at me and I was laughing and screamed back (and I kinda was like "wtf is actually wrong with you?!??!?!?!)

So Kuzu screamed "KIMOCHI II!!" (which is actually "it feels so good..." in japanese porn) - yoshihiko who was drinking at the moment laughed, swallowed hardly and turned to kuzu grinning

I was so annoyed by my own but it was too much fun to stop that and the band also had a lot of fun when we did shit like this somehow haha.

Kuzu also screamed "Senpaaaiii! Senpaaai noooticee meee!" in a really silently moment so the whole audience started to laugh and one of the drunk girls did a highfive with Kuzu xD

So there came the point when they played 'Shinda Sekai' (It's like...'the world dies')...I sat down on stage and just watched them doing their show - Karu took my hand because I am such an emotionally wrack when it comes to that song.
Yoshihiko had SO much emotions - I don't remember when I saw a musician singing with so many feelings lately.

When the "an-co-re!" (encore) part started...we all got crazy - we growled and shoutet and beat with our hands or beer bottles like hooligans on the stage but the band was positively suprised when they came out again. XD

Kiri took a paper and read "purisu...bai...aur...merch!!" *proud smile* (please buy our merch)
Such a cute piece of shit...

At the end - DON'T FUCKING ASK ME HOW THAT HAPPENED I DON'T KNOW I SWEAR!! - we started a moshpit HAHAHA
I was happy that their songs wasn't actually just furis and jumping - we had a lot of headbang times ahaha
But the baby moshpit was the escalation from hell haha

The whole right side was like "ewww go away don't do that u brats" - and the whole left side was like "yeeaaaah moooshpiiittt!!" - so the leftside first 3-4 rows joined us - it seemed like no one was mad with us for doing that - they all stand around us and smiled and had fun by only watching us.
So Kuzu, Me and the drunken girls seemed to had the most fun at all haha
It didn't matter where we stand then if we actually were in the first row and after moshpit in the third - it wasn't matter at all haha
I got hurt so often without even noticing. I even lost one of my hair extension XD
At the end we all hugged each other, we took care the whole time if everyone was okay and...god it was SO much fun I really didn't expect that!

When the band left the stage there was a japanese nerdy staff and me and one of the girls bend forward "すみませぇぇーん！！水！！" (EXCUUUSEE MEEE!! WATEER!!) because there was a full bottle of water and we were thirsty as shit and he was like "lol nope" and did his stuff...bastard ;A;

After we went back downstairs for signing session so...I already bought photoset and a shirt and...
we still looked okay, didn't we?
When it was my turn at the signing session at first there was Nao
I smiled brightly "Hi!!" - he smiled at me, signed the photo and took my little hand with his both hands ‘どもありがとう!‘ (thank you very much) he whispered from the bottom of his heart (I swear) and I smiled while bow down a little.
So I took a step to Yoshihiko - he looked at me, bowed down a little and then took his own shirt with two fingers "Thank you!" he smiled and I laughed "You are welcome..." (he wanted to thank me, that I bought their shirt ^^)
Next one was Kohsuke - he was all chillin around, he had his beer - he was happy HAHAHAHA
He also took both of my hands and thanked me - I also thanked him!
So...last one was Kiri - I took all my shit together!
Me: " 桐さんは本当にかわいいです！" *smiles* (you are really cute!)
Kiri: " えぇぇ？？？" *takes a little look up while signing the photo* 本当に？ (ehh? Really??)
Me: " はーはい！" (Yeees!!)
Kiri " あなたの日本語は非常に良いです！" *looks at me smiling very bright* (You're japanese is really good!) 
Me: "えぇぇぇー？？？" *didn't understand anything acoustically and bend forward* (eeehh?) 
Kiri: "Your...japanese is...good!" *tries to say it in english very nervously*
Me: "あぁぁ！わかった！ありがとうございます！" *nearly died, laughs hysterically and bows down* (Ahh! I understand! Thank you!)
Kiri: "ありがとう" *smiles and gave back the photo, then shakes hand* (Thank you) 

I think that's it...by the way - this was the first concert I was able to have conversations in japanese a little and I was kinda proud of me because the hard learning was worth it xD
after I slept at Karu's place and took a 10 hours way back home today...I am...not even have having a post-concert-depression...I am still happy about that great experience, the band, the audience - everything and everyone who made that concert unforgetable for me! ♥

Photoshoot and fun!

Hey guys!

Yesterday my babes Nini-pon and Yasemin had a little Streetstyle-shooting again with Max as our wonderful photographer!

So we actually wanted to meet at 10:30am at Nini's flat but unfortunately I have a foot injury so I'm really slowly on my crutches haha
So we were there at...idk 12pm? xD

Nini made a little breakfast for us so at first we ate unhurriedly and then talked about the fucking stress in the morning with the Gazette merch sale, because Ninipon had the same stress too - then we looked up in the garish room an cried lol

after this Nini and Yasemin started to do their make up - I was already finish with everything so I smoked or helped them with contactlenses and stuff

I actually planned a totally different outfit but when I saw Nini's Gazette "Crucify sixx" Shirt, I changed all of my clothers wtf xD

I love this fucking T-shirt and I love the fucking new Hoodie (even through "Fadeless" and "devouring one another" have a spelling mistake and "Last Heaven" and "inside beast" are not even on that hoodie xDD)

So I think we all finished 1-2 hours later we planned hahaha
We were really happy when we finished everythin and were ready to go!

So we met up with Max and started with taking some photos.
The beginning is always the hardest because you feel shy and don't know what to do - stuff like this.

We felt kinda uncomfortable and didn't know where too shoot until one of us got the idea to go to a car park/garage idk.

This was probably our best idea haha.

We went there and the atmosphere was kinda perfect I think!
A schoolfriend of mine joined us with food (love for this) so when Max took one shot photos of everyone we sat there on the floor, talked and ate cake!
What a wonderful life!

I only have a few pictures now, because Max is still editing them (he's god in it!)
So I hope you like the few pictures I already have!

 

WHAT?!

OKAY - I have to tell someone now about the biggest stress in my whole life after I survived the Gazette Worldtour ticket sale.

I'm in the official Fanclub (Heresy) of Gazette so yesterday I got a mail that they will upload the merch from CODA there at 18.01.2014 / 15:00 (JPTS)

So this is 7am in Germany...

And now I fucking get up at 6.30am......I WAS TIRED AS FUCK - and then they were late.
Like they uploaded the first stuff at 7.15am.

So when there finally the Tweety shirt I wanted arrived I fucking put it in my card and paid.
This took about...idk...1-2 minutes.
After I go back the shirt was sold out....AFTER 2 MINUTES!!!
Do you see what's wrong with this shit?!
I mean I got it but holy cow - after 10 Minutes nearly everything except the ugly and really expensive shit was sold out.
This is crazy - I'm shocked.

Gazette Fandom?! You're fucked up.
But it's okay, because I am too lol

Girugamesh ticket sale starts in 6 days and I paid my last 50€ for Gazette Merch now hahahaha.

But can we talk about how perfect the shirt is...?!

With that "eeny meeny miny moe" from inside beast - I'm dying okay? OKAY?!
So I bought the shopping bag too but it's not that important to show lol

So okay - that all.
Pathetic fangirl post, over!

Ruki I hope u feel guilty for takin my last money.

ねぇ！ねぇ！ (*＾ワ＾*)

Long time no see!

At first, sorry for my englisch now - I'm really tired but I feel like I have to tell you something.

In the last few weeks I thought a lot about that cosplay thing after all.
You know I didn't make a cosplay in 2013 and I feel like I've lost the pleasure or something.
I really like to cosplay, don't get me wrong.
I like those costumes, making myself ready, photos - that kind.
But on the other hand, I don't really enjoy going to convention or something - and I hate watching anime and don't find the motivation to watch some, guess the only thing I'm still reading is Naruto.
And then, it is really expensive.

I'm more in that "J-fashion/Music" thing after all (again) - probably all I care about are my bands, their merch, clothes and how to go to fucking Japan.
I don't want to spend my money on a costume if I can go to a concert for it, like that.
U see what I mean?!

Cosplaying is REALLY expensiv and I rather spend my money on my bands or new nice clothes than for a cosplay I'm wearing once and that's it..

I know I promised to go to the LBM this year but then Miyavi Tour was announced and I bought my ticket for London without knowing it is the same date as the LBM is.
I'm really sorry for breaking my promise and actually I'm kinda happy because I don't really like to visit conventions after all...
I'll try to go to more convention (also oversea) too for you this year - but I don't know what bands will come next because...yeah same, I'm repeating...

I think, if there is a cosplay, I really want to make, I'll totally do but I don't want you to always expect me to make new cosplays because I think that's not who I am anymore.
I started this thing like 4-5 years ago and I'm tired of it somehow.

Maybe I'll change the way I'm making videos too somehow - like...more Vlog things, Make up and Hair - u need some videos for more self esteem or learning japanese ?! :)

I'm looking forward to have a new Sasuke Basic Shoot this year!
Let's see what the time will bring.
I've probably forgot half of what I wanted said and I'm sorry if it sounds rude or something - please ask me, if you want to know something so there won't be any misunderstanding! 

I love you guys and I'm really thankful for you're supporting me (anyway?!)
Let's have a great 2014 together somehow.
I will really try to be more active!

またね皆さん！

And kisses from Senpai. (づ￣ ³￣)づ