Heidi. Concert 2014 ٩(•̤̀ᵕ•̤́๑)

Guuuuuuuuys!

So I didn't post something about the Miyavi concert or..at least about my trip to London in general bc..when I took a week time I nearly forgot everything I actually did there so writing about now is really hard...
SOOOOOOOOOO I decided to write something about yesterday (17.04.14) night!

I went to the Heidi. ( ↑ if you don't know them, here they are! ↑) concert yesterday in Cologne (you might know that I live in Hamburg so driving to Cologne at first was a horrortrip of 7 hours of bus driving (;¬_¬))
Since I don't know my way around there in cologne it was a torture to find the stage on my own somehow (I met up with my friend Karu then)
I was quite nevous because...I REALLY adore Heidi. for so many years now - even if I actually listen to much harder music I always kept listening to Heidi. since I found them in...2008 I think...?
So for 5 years I annoyed my friends with "maybe Heidi. will come to Germany one day!! ;A;" Shit and now...FINALLY - it was kinda like a dream for me.
But when I sat there in front of the location and saw the band taking out their equipment I...realized that this was real.
I bought a VIP ticket so I had the pleasure of a meet and greet before...
I made a Fangift //shy hiding behind something ;;

 

Some German candy and a fanletter where I wrote (thanks to Nia for helping me!) that I love their music now for like 6 years and I and my other Fans are so happy that they came to Europe now - stuff like this (It's embarrassing to translate it word by word now  ಥ⌣ಥ) )
So when Kuzu and I entered the hall and went downstairs for Meet & Greet I inwardly died lol
A woman told us, that it is a Meet and Greet and we DO have time to talk with the band because everyone just took a photo and left but...guess what...
When it was my turn, I shy laughend and went to them.
Kiri (Drums) smiled at me, took a look at my shirt (actually my boobs, I swear.) and read out 'Tokyo' which was written there...WHY KIRI WHY?
He's like my favorite and I just smiled "Yeah..."
So the whole band was like "eehhhh tokyooo??" and I had to turn around so they can all take a look look at my super cool shirt aka boobs lol
So...I learnd the sentence : " 桐さんのとなりに立ちたいです!" (I want to stand next to Kiri-san) for like...10 hours before but of course u all know me - i wasn't able to say that so I stood next to Kohsuke and...Yoshihiko. Look at my happy face omg I am done haha
So when they took the photo I went upstairs to the stage - first row, Kousukes side! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ
Next to us were girls standing who was drinking the whole time and I was...kinda pissed - but I will tell in detail later..
The first act was "Unsayn" - a german 'girlband' - I was skeptical about that because I saw them in 2013 at the ChisaiiCon and I was like "lol nope.."
When they played their first song everyone was just...doing things on their own - some people even turned around that they were with their back to the band - excuse me but this is so rude??!?!...before the second song started Kuzu looked at me "let's escalate!!" - I felt so sorry for the band because they aren't that bad and just bc they aren't asian or things it doesn't mean you don't have to notice them bc they are there for promotion excuse meee??
So I took of my cute pigtails and ribbons and...HERE WE ARE - HEAADBAAANG!!
It was so much fun and I remember that a girl right behind me slammed so hard against my coccyx with her head that I wasn't sure for 5 seconds who got more hurt xD
After I turned around to her and she was OK, so I was.
They only played 3 songs so...after...HEIDI.!

I was really worried about..if everything will work...if fans will have fun and go crazy and things like that...
And I was kinda...not in the mood after headbanging for 3 songs to just do Furi and jump bc actually I hate it xD

So when Heidi. came up on stage I was SO positively suprised!
Fans did everything - everyone had their own space NO ONE was pushing and shit, NO ONE even tried to touch them or something, when the band bend forward the crowd, everyone took back the hand to don't touch them in an impolite way - it was awesome!
I never never never never never saw a THAT disciplined audience like that!

And I NEVER saw a SO friendly band in such a good mood - you was able to see that they were having a lot of fun and not only doing it for money or shit.

Yoshihiko also learned a little german - it was SO cute when he first took a look on his little paper and then "habut...iha...supasss??" (are you having fun?) and things like this.

When they took their little breaks to drink we all went to little annoying japanese fangirls for fun HAHAHA.

I was like "KIIIRI - KIRIKIRIKIRIKIRI SAAAN DAISUKIII!!!" in highed pitched voice and somehow he really noticed me, stood up, took a look at me, smiled and waved his hand - that was actually not planned XD

Kohsuke once took a look at me and smiled, I was singing, took a randomly look up to him and he screamed at me and I was laughing and screamed back (and I kinda was like "wtf is actually wrong with you?!??!?!?!)

So Kuzu screamed "KIMOCHI II!!" (which is actually "it feels so good..." in japanese porn) - yoshihiko who was drinking at the moment laughed, swallowed hardly and turned to kuzu grinning

I was so annoyed by my own but it was too much fun to stop that and the band also had a lot of fun when we did shit like this somehow haha.

Kuzu also screamed "Senpaaaiii! Senpaaai noooticee meee!" in a really silently moment so the whole audience started to laugh and one of the drunk girls did a highfive with Kuzu xD

So there came the point when they played 'Shinda Sekai' (It's like...'the world dies')...I sat down on stage and just watched them doing their show - Karu took my hand because I am such an emotionally wrack when it comes to that song.
Yoshihiko had SO much emotions - I don't remember when I saw a musician singing with so many feelings lately.

When the "an-co-re!" (encore) part started...we all got crazy - we growled and shoutet and beat with our hands or beer bottles like hooligans on the stage but the band was positively suprised when they came out again. XD

Kiri took a paper and read "purisu...bai...aur...merch!!" *proud smile* (please buy our merch)
Such a cute piece of shit...

At the end - DON'T FUCKING ASK ME HOW THAT HAPPENED I DON'T KNOW I SWEAR!! - we started a moshpit HAHAHA
I was happy that their songs wasn't actually just furis and jumping - we had a lot of headbang times ahaha
But the baby moshpit was the escalation from hell haha

The whole right side was like "ewww go away don't do that u brats" - and the whole left side was like "yeeaaaah moooshpiiittt!!" - so the leftside first 3-4 rows joined us - it seemed like no one was mad with us for doing that - they all stand around us and smiled and had fun by only watching us.
So Kuzu, Me and the drunken girls seemed to had the most fun at all haha
It didn't matter where we stand then if we actually were in the first row and after moshpit in the third - it wasn't matter at all haha
I got hurt so often without even noticing. I even lost one of my hair extension XD
At the end we all hugged each other, we took care the whole time if everyone was okay and...god it was SO much fun I really didn't expect that!

When the band left the stage there was a japanese nerdy staff and me and one of the girls bend forward "すみませぇぇーん!!水!!" (EXCUUUSEE MEEE!! WATEER!!) because there was a full bottle of water and we were thirsty as shit and he was like "lol nope" and did his stuff...bastard ;A;

After we went back downstairs for signing session so...I already bought photoset and a shirt and...
we still looked okay, didn't we?
When it was my turn at the signing session at first there was Nao
I smiled brightly "Hi!!" - he smiled at me, signed the photo and took my little hand with his both hands ‘どもありがとう!‘ (thank you very much) he whispered from the bottom of his heart (I swear) and I smiled while bow down a little.
So I took a step to Yoshihiko - he looked at me, bowed down a little and then took his own shirt with two fingers "Thank you!" he smiled and I laughed "You are welcome..." (he wanted to thank me, that I bought their shirt ^^)
Next one was Kohsuke - he was all chillin around, he had his beer - he was happy HAHAHAHA
He also took both of my hands and thanked me - I also thanked him!
So...last one was Kiri - I took all my shit together!
Me: " 桐さんは本当にかわいいです!" *smiles* (you are really cute!)
Kiri: " えぇぇ???" *takes a little look up while signing the photo* 本当に? (ehh? Really??)
Me: " はーはい!" (Yeees!!)
Kiri " あなたの日本語は非常に良いです!" *looks at me smiling very bright* (You're japanese is really good!) 
Me: "えぇぇぇー???" *didn't understand anything acoustically and bend forward* (eeehh?) 
Kiri: "Your...japanese is...good!" *tries to say it in english very nervously*
Me: "あぁぁ!わかった!ありがとうございます!" *nearly died, laughs hysterically and bows down* (Ahh! I understand! Thank you!)
Kiri: "ありがとう" *smiles and gave back the photo, then shakes hand* (Thank you) 

I think that's it...by the way - this was the first concert I was able to have conversations in japanese a little and I was kinda proud of me because the hard learning was worth it xD
after I slept at Karu's place and took a 10 hours way back home today...I am...not even have having a post-concert-depression...I am still happy about that great experience, the band, the audience - everything and everyone who made that concert unforgetable for me! ♥







Photoshoot and fun!

Hey guys!

Yesterday my babes Nini-pon and Yasemin had a little Streetstyle-shooting again with Max as our wonderful photographer!

So we actually wanted to meet at 10:30am at Nini's flat but unfortunately I have a foot injury so I'm really slowly on my crutches haha
So we were there at...idk 12pm? xD

Nini made a little breakfast for us so at first we ate unhurriedly and then talked about the fucking stress in the morning with the Gazette merch sale, because Ninipon had the same stress too - then we looked up in the garish room an cried lol

after this Nini and Yasemin started to do their make up - I was already finish with everything so I smoked or helped them with contactlenses and stuff

I actually planned a totally different outfit but when I saw Nini's Gazette "Crucify sixx" Shirt, I changed all of my clothers wtf xD

I love this fucking T-shirt and I love the fucking new Hoodie (even through "Fadeless" and "devouring one another" have a spelling mistake and "Last Heaven" and "inside beast" are not even on that hoodie xDD)



So I think we all finished 1-2 hours later we planned hahaha
We were really happy when we finished everythin and were ready to go!

So we met up with Max and started with taking some photos.
The beginning is always the hardest because you feel shy and don't know what to do - stuff like this.

We felt kinda uncomfortable and didn't know where too shoot until one of us got the idea to go to a car park/garage idk.

This was probably our best idea haha.

We went there and the atmosphere was kinda perfect I think!
A schoolfriend of mine joined us with food (love for this) so when Max took one shot photos of everyone we sat there on the floor, talked and ate cake!
What a wonderful life!
I only have a few pictures now, because Max is still editing them (he's god in it!)
So I hope you like the few pictures I already have!


 










WHAT?!

OKAY - I have to tell someone now about the biggest stress in my whole life after I survived the Gazette Worldtour ticket sale.

I'm in the official Fanclub (Heresy) of Gazette so yesterday I got a mail that they will upload the merch from CODA there at 18.01.2014 / 15:00 (JPTS)

So this is 7am in Germany...

And now I fucking get up at 6.30am......I WAS TIRED AS FUCK - and then they were late.
Like they uploaded the first stuff at 7.15am.

So when there finally the Tweety shirt I wanted arrived I fucking put it in my card and paid.
This took about...idk...1-2 minutes.
After I go back the shirt was sold out....AFTER 2 MINUTES!!!
Do you see what's wrong with this shit?!
I mean I got it but holy cow - after 10 Minutes nearly everything except the ugly and really expensive shit was sold out.
This is crazy - I'm shocked.

Gazette Fandom?! You're fucked up.
But it's okay, because I am too lol

Girugamesh ticket sale starts in 6 days and I paid my last 50€ for Gazette Merch now hahahaha.

But can we talk about how perfect the shirt is...?!


With that "eeny meeny miny moe" from inside beast - I'm dying okay? OKAY?!
So I bought the shopping bag too but it's not that important to show lol

So okay - that all.
Pathetic fangirl post, over!

Ruki I hope u feel guilty for takin my last money.



ねぇ!ねぇ! (*^ワ^*)

Long time no see!

At first, sorry for my englisch now - I'm really tired but I feel like I have to tell you something.

In the last few weeks I thought a lot about that cosplay thing after all.
You know I didn't make a cosplay in 2013 and I feel like I've lost the pleasure or something.
I really like to cosplay, don't get me wrong.
I like those costumes, making myself ready, photos - that kind.

But on the other hand, I don't really enjoy going to convention or something - and I hate watching anime and don't find the motivation to watch some, guess the only thing I'm still reading is Naruto.
And then, it is really expensive.

I'm more in that "J-fashion/Music" thing after all (again) - probably all I care about are my bands, their merch, clothes and how to go to fucking Japan.
I don't want to spend my money on a costume if I can go to a concert for it, like that.
U see what I mean?!

Cosplaying is REALLY expensiv and I rather spend my money on my bands or new nice clothes than for a cosplay I'm wearing once and that's it..

I know I promised to go to the LBM this year but then Miyavi Tour was announced and I bought my ticket for London without knowing it is the same date as the LBM is.

I'm really sorry for breaking my promise and actually I'm kinda happy because I don't really like to visit conventions after all...
I'll try to go to more convention (also oversea) too for you this year - but I don't know what bands will come next because...yeah same, I'm repeating...

I think, if there is a cosplay, I really want to make, I'll totally do but I don't want you to always expect me to make new cosplays because I think that's not who I am anymore.
I started this thing like 4-5 years ago and I'm tired of it somehow.


Maybe I'll change the way I'm making videos too somehow - like...more Vlog things, Make up and Hair - u need some videos for more self esteem or learning japanese ?! :)


I'm looking forward to have a new Sasuke Basic Shoot this year!
Let's see what the time will bring.
I've probably forgot half of what I wanted said and I'm sorry if it sounds rude or something - please ask me, if you want to know something so there won't be any misunderstanding! 


I love you guys and I'm really thankful for you're supporting me (anyway?!)
Let's have a great 2014 together somehow.
I will really try to be more active!


またね皆さん!
And kisses from Senpai. (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ





Gazette world tour 2013 (Germany) - Part 3 - travelling and the concert in Munich!

PLEASE KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS TEXT IS PART THREE! 
Feel free to read part one (the day's in front of the hall) and part two (the concert in Dortmund) too.

So after the concert we all took our baggage and went to Duisburg to Mimi for taking a shower and sleep a little.
We cooked noodles and it was more than awesome to eat a hot meal after this 5 days hahaha

I took a picture from me after the concert - bjutifuru!

Unfortunately I couldn't sleep so I just sat on the floor and done nothing haha...

At 6AM Mimi's alarm ringed and we all stood up and straighted our hair, packed our bags and so on.

Mask and sunglasses and everything looked fine hahaha.

At 7AM we were in Duisburg at the central station again and waited for our train about...2 hours :c

It was cold and boring and...yeah...cold haha



Our first stop was in...Frankfurt am Main I think - a really huge central station and Domi and I felt like some kind of japanese tourists - we took photos from everything (and then we felt like a Hipster uploading it on Instagram haha)



We bought some food and took the next train.

I think our travel took about...10 hours?!

When we arrived in Munich I felt like I was abroad - I mean...I'm from Hamburg - I was at the totally other part of Germany - I never was that far away from home without my parents..


So the bavarian accent was quite funny at first - unfortunately there was the Oktoberfest at the time - so actually 90% of the people there were drunk...so people talked to us randomly every second minute.

We ate something at Burger King and then went to the hall - at first we didn't find it but then we arrived at 22pm v.v

It was like a big party area so the security from the Tonhalle had sealed up a little area where the fans can sleep without drunk people will harass them.

It was really closely because of so many people and we just wanted to sleep so we went in this sealed area and a girl gave us a number ...numbersystem? at a Gazette concert?
Dear Jesus this used to be impossible but I didn't care - I just wanted to sleep.

It was really noisy there because from every club there was an other music - but I really slept like a baby hahaha I was so done.

They told us we have to get um at 8AM so we can start to stand in line...and you know when we had to get up the next day...6AM...!!!

I was so pissed because they woke me up and everyone was in stress and we had to took our stuff and oh my god - so when they finally managed everything (a little) I just laid back to the floor and slept.

Around 8-9AM I woke up and...what the hell I've never seen so many people haha...I mean...it was still 7-8 hours before entry haha

So I bought some food, ate something went to Burger King for straighting my hair, stuff like this to kill the time - I hate to wait for something.

Most of the time I just sat on a increased wall, smoked and watched the fucking stress from above haha

So when the security said that they won't do the number system, everyone was in panic and get up - so they stood for hours wating for something will happen haha 

It was so much entertaiment - only we really chilled - we don't even stood in line haha..

So after the VIP entry was - we stood close to the line to Mo - because Mo ist...yeah she's really huge haha.

Three boys stood with ous (friends from Mo) and it was SO funny, when the camera staff went out, all the little girls were excited "oh my good - wuuh gazette hehehe smiling yeah" and we...well...stood there, smoking and one of the boy ran into the camera, done a somersault and went back ...wtf?! HAHAHA
When everyone screamed: "gazetto! gazetto!" he screamed "NUDELSUPPE" (noodle Soup) and the staff just looked up to him and laughed very loud haha

So then - finally - the regular entry - without standing in line somehow we where in really fast?!
So we bought our Merch and...yeah went to the end of the hall where the soundtechnique were behind us so no one could stand there and we would have our space - we don't wanted to die like in Dortmund so we sat down in a reaaaaally huge circle so nobody was able to stand there.

We dressed up and waited for the concert. 


I have to say, that we saw nothing haha - when the intro started and the band entered the stage Mo lifted me quickly so I can see them haha.

But it doesn't matter cause we didn't want to see anything - we just wanted to have fun at this concert

So let me tell you about the setlist and so on~


01. Derangement
We all stood up and held our hands so a little group about 4-5 people does it the same way - and actually while we were waitin for the concert, I thought this girls are really arrogant but when the music started I didn't care anymore - I hit their hands apart, took one hand of the girl and kicked amy so she took the other girls hand so we were a circle about 15 people?!
We just started to headbang all together - we and the strangers - to-ge-ther!
It was such a great feeling and so much fun - I can't describe it in words haha...

02. Gabriel on the Gallows
We jumped so high at "Gallows" hahaha I don't know - it was lika a 'party' - and we had so much space! hahaha

03. Venomous Spider's Web
I really get exciting at this song so we all clapped our hands and then headbang together! haha

04. Vortex
We stood in a circle again and had so much fun! When Uruha had his guitarsolo Domi lifted me with the words "he's so beautiful" that I could see him perfectly haha

05. Before I decay
I don't really remember - I'm sorry hahaha - we did probably all the same hahaha

06. The Suicide Circus
We jumped and all sang together with him like in trance or something haha - I took Domi in front of me so she can see Ruki very well!

07. Dripping Insanity
The transition was fairly perfect like always so I just took Domi's hand an let her enjoy 'her' song.
I took a look to Mizu and saw her saying: "I don't want it to end" - she started to cry and Mo hugged her tightly.
I started to think about, that this is REALLY our last concert and enjoyed if even much more.

08. Untitled
I just sat down to the floor - Domi wanted to raise me up again but I didn't want to so she sat next to me.
I pulled on my legs - laid down my head on it and closed my eyes - I enjoyed this so much and started to cry very quickly - Domi gently took an arm around me and I fell around her neck and cried so much - it was so much more beautiful than in Dortmund!
When the song finished we stood up again and everyone of us were crying a little - so we all hugged each other ♥

09. Agony
I WASN'T FUCKING READY FOR THIS HAHA - we all laughed and had a lot of fun to rap to each other haha - at the beginning my eyes were still full of tears but it was easy to smile and have fun at all - we've really done a party there in the hidden part of the hall hahaha
And we all sang the misheard german lyrics "We are soo gaaay - (...) - why can't you understand I kack hier in my shirt" hahahah

10. Clever Monkey
THIS - OMG - WE ALL WATCHED AT EACH OTHER SCREAMING SO LOUD
Months before or when we watched MELT we wished for this song so badly - so bad-ly.
Just for noticing Reita HAHAHA - this is like his song omg he feels it so much HAHAH
So yeah - we all just took our eyes on Reita an laughed and headbang and had fun and oh my god - know yourseeeeelf!

11. Headache Man
We waited for this the whole day - we had so much space at the "We are the cause of your headache ♫" part that we kinda started a little moshpit while jumping in all directions - so many people joined us- I really get hurted without noticing - so much adrenalin haha
It was amazing!


12. Required Malfunction
This was so much fun - the "wohhoo - aaahhaa~♫" part haha - we all watched at each other and started a little 'moshpit' again - party! haha
Amy and I was so done after headache man, that while everyone stood we knelt down to the floor and just headbanged haha

13. Filth in the beauty 
THIS - WAS - A - REALLY - MAGICALLY - MOMENT.
When the "the reverse side of beauty memememe" part started we all knelt down - we and a lot of strangers we didn't even know - we all sat on the floor in a circle holding hands and then...HEADBANGING!!
SO much - SO much Fun - we stood up again - jumped at "how long, how long, how long" - knelt down again - this was kinda exhausting but SO much fun - I can't describe this feeling in words.


- break -
we all sweat so much and reached for air or something haha
I went to one of Mo's friend "when they'll play Hyena in the encore...can you and your friend take Domi and me on your shoulders...please..."
He laughed and agreed.
I told Domi about that and we were really excited because we wanted to see a RukixUruha fanservice in live so much haha

ENC1. Shiver
We were a little sad because I remembered the Setlist from Toulouse where they played Hyena - whatever we stood there and sang alonge - I still don't like Shiver haha

ENC2. Hyena
ISODJFKTJIWETMETWI - the both guys lifted us up to their shoulders and ...omg we saw EVERYTHING - the crowd, the band - everything.
We held hands and nearly broke them when Uruha went to Ruki and Ruki put his arm around him really tight.
They were so close and Aoi done some funny stuff behind them that we laughed haha
We held our hands up to a heart and Aoi watched at us smiling really bright...it was so beautiful - his smile is so gripping.

ENC3. Linda ~candydive pinky heaven~
When the guy let me down again he said "your not that heavy like you told me" - I laughed charming "so then you can lift me up again at Linda?"
He agreed smiling and lifted me up again so his friend did the same with Domi.
We've done the WHOLE furi on their shoulders and the band noticed us so much - Ruki put his hand above his eyebrowns like he was searching for something and noddes with a smirk.
When the 'scream' part where everyone screamed "Aaay - aaay" while headbanging we nearly fell down haha
I grapped my hand deeply on his head and domi and I held hands again to have more stability.

When Ruki requested us all to wave our hands - we surely done it smiling really bright so Uruha and Aoi went to the middle of the stage and looked up to us smiling really happy.
My heart kinda melted away hahaha

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When the band left the stage the guys dropped us off again and we hugged them happily with a "thank you SO much!"
Maybe they felt kinda more manly now, having us for a so long time on their shoulders xD

We all took our stuff, cried and hugged each other.

When we entered the hall, I remember a girl behind me said "Yazochan!"
I didn't even noticed it at the moment so when I exited the hall I fell down on my knees, dropped my head among my arms and cried - I just crouched there on the floor - in the way of everyone, so they had to pass me somehow - and cried.
It was over - I just saw them - I'll probably never see them again - but I saw them!

I stood up again, went to Domi, we hugged and fell down to the floor again hugging and crying.
I calmed down earlier than she did so she laid her head down on my lap and I stroked through her hair.
She looked up to my crying and smiling at the same time - I laughed, took her head with both hands and kissed her on her forehead.

When we all calmed a littled we took our stuff back, said goodbye to all of our friends and the people we get to know there and went to the central station waiting for our train back...
This was the best concert in our live - we talked about it the whole way home...
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The concert was really great if I compare it to Dortmund - the audience done a great job - the hall and sound was perfectly okay - and the most important thing, the band had a MUCH better mood.
At the first Aoi was a little bit...calmed - but after 2-3 songs he really had fun on stage.
I hope the concert was for them as great as it was for us and I hope they'll come back soon.

早く戻って来てください。コンサートは最高でした。ありがとうございました!♥







Gazette world tour 2013 (Germany) - Part 2 - the concert in Dortmund

PLEASE KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS TEXT IS PART TWO! 
Feel free to read part one (the day's in front of the hall) too.

We sat down on the floor and waited those 2,5 hours left to the concert.

I really get angry when people already started to push and scream when there were only staffs at the stage tuning the instruments.
Whenever I saw people with cameras I screamed that they have to put back their fucking mobil/camera because it was strictly prohibited - guys, is it so hard to follow rules?
If Gazette is your fucking favorite band then just respect their request to not taking photos or videos!

Mo, Tami and Mizu stand in front of Aoi so when the stage was emty I leaned over the barrier and screamed

"MOOO!" - "JA?" - "OOOB DU BEEHINDERT BIST!!!" ("Are you stupid?" - we screamed 'ob du behindert bist' the whole time we waited for the concert and if you say this really aggressive it sounds really funny xD) - "JA BIN ICH!!" (yes I am)

So we had a lot of fun haha - Mo and Mizu screamed 'Kaolu' one time when the staffs leaved haha

I guess Jay (B7Klan) made a speech before the concert started "Please be gently to each other - do not take photos" bla bla.

Then the Intro ( I guess it was [XI]) started and I get so fucking nervous, clapping my hands - so then finally Kai arrived and everyone screamed and I was like "is this fucking real?!" and then I saw Uruha and started to shake so badly - I just realized I really see Gazette - my favorite band for so many years - directly in front of me.
They were so beautiful - more beautiful than on photos - omg.

I remember the Setlist perfectly I think
01. VORTEX 
it was so much fun, headbanging, little bit hand-furi and to scream "I don't wanna become the fucking garbage like you!"
I got an elbow in my eyebrow...lol...it's still swollen
02. Leech
headbanging, headbanging, headbanging - and jumping haha - this was terrible in the first row because I can't move easily.
03. Before I decay
I guess at this song the first girls were lifted out the crowd from the security...
04. GABRIEL ON THE GALLOWS
I love this song so much - so much party haha!
05. VENOMOUS SPIDER’S WEB
THIS - when the 'pain - grudge - sorrow - fury - delete - headache - hang up - dizzy' part started the whole hall clapped their hands and jumped omg it was so much fun!
06. THE SUICIDE CIRCUS
I was angry that everyone screamed when the quit part at the beginning (like for example at MELT) started - but Ruki's moves were so...fascinating...I couldn't take my eyes off. This song was perfect - everything was perfect - particularly the transition to Dripping Insanity
07. DRIPPING INSANITY
I just took Domi's hand because this is the song she loves the most - it was really beautiful - I tried to look to Uruha more often but Ruki was so...gripping that I couldn't somehow.
I was sad, that the audience screamed at the end.
I know, dripping insanity doesn't sound like a sad song but the lyrics is really sad and beautiful.
08. UNTITLED
One of my favorite songs - I folded my hands and just tried to listen to it - to enjoy it.
This was impossible because about 4 people were lifted right next to me so all the time I had an ass in my face and helped a little to put them over the barrier.
At the end Uruha looked to me and I just closed my eyes and a tear ran down my cheek because of this song - everytime I felt sick I listened to this song and now this 5 boys stand in front of me and performed it..live...this was an 
indescribably feeling.
'of course' everyone screamed at the end again and we in the first row just clapped so loud and long that it was silent really fast and everyone did the same - just clapping.
09. DERANGEMENT
At first it was hard to handle my 'untitled'-feelings but then...party - it was so much fun to scream the "t-t-this derangement" part haha - I really love this song..the lyric everything - but in my head I already was one step further haha
10. Headache Man
THIS - WAS - SO - MUCH - FUN! - I felt excited for this song the whole time because the "We are the cause of your headache" part ist SO much fun omg guys I can't hahaha
11. SLUDGY CULT
I have to say, I don't really remember this but I know that after Headache Man a lot of people had to lift out from the crowd - maybe the reason why I don't really remember this song haha..
12. Cockroach
The headbang part..guys..omg P-E-R-F-E-C-T!
Unfortunately my friend amy collapsed (because a girl behind her hit her elbow into her rips that she can't breathe) so a security took her away 
omg SO many people tried to reach her place in the first row then haha...
I just took Domi's arm and move up to her.

13. Filth in the beauty

Do I have to say something to this song?I was sad that we have to do this without Amy but...OMG JMKWERIWEJTE - it was so exhausting but so much fun!


- break -
I drank so much omg hahaha I've never seen a security gave so much water the whole concert haha
I was really wet (I mean wet...not horny lol) and omg.
After Nia was gone too, Domi and I held hands and promised that we will survive the full encore - WE HAVE TO.
We didn't ate much before the concert because we couldn't and Amy said, we will be the first one who will collapse - HAH!

So we clapped our Hands - "an-co-re  -- an-co-re" - about...I don't know...10 Minutes?!

Finally they came back.

Enc1. Shiver
I don't really like this song because of Kuroshitusuji..it's so...swallowed...every little anime fangirl knows it haha..

Enc2. Ruder

I couldn't noticed this song because I tried to put out my hair ties that I can finally bang perfectly at 'Linda' haha - I just screamed the "RUDER" part - I hope the senpais won't be angry because I doesn't noticed them for 2 minutes (lol I'm so funny)

Enc3. Linda ~Candydive Pinky Heaven~

THIS - almost the first row done the whole furi and the band was really happy about that I think - that song Ruki and Uruha noticed us the most haha - Uruha just stand in front of us and...guys...his lips - this is unbelievable..
His toenails were covered with black nailpolish...if anyone is interested in this fact lol
And Reita swung his bass like always - his little chubbyface looked so cute haha
Kai smiled the whole time and Aoi is a little latin loverboy who flirted with the audience

After they throw in their stuff they leaved with "knockin on heavens door" - I was like "wtf...who chose this song?!" haha
Domi got a bottle cap from Ruki and she was so happy about it!

Domi and I started to cry and hugged each other - we just sank down to the floor - arm in arm - I just gripped my hand deeply in her wet hair and she put her arms tight around my waist and we cried because we were so fucking happy.

When we leaved we met all - Mo,Tami, Amy, Nia - we all hugged - this was so beautiful!

It was so full that we couldn't leave the hall until Mo passed us really fast screaming "GO AWAY I NEED TO PUKE!" - we laughed, I clinged on her and we went out perfectly haha.

At first we ran to REWE to buy some drink and smoke - everything was so perfect - I just hugged some other people I met there.

When Nia and I wanted to take the bags from a girls car, we passed Jonathan, a boy we know from Hamburg.
We stopped and Nia wispered "he catched a plec from Uruha"
I turned to him and he went backwards with a big smirk.
I just followed him "please wait...I won't hurt u or something I just want to take a look at it.."
So he stopped and gave me the plec - when I held it into me hands I started to cry
Nia said, that it's not fair, because I love him so much really gently and Jonathan smiled and said, that I can take it...
I never was that happy...I hugged him crying "thank you so much oh my god.."

Then we wanted to continue our walk to the car but after 2 meters I started to cry so badly and Nia stopped and put her hands around my waist very tight.
We just stand right directly on the street and the cars were waiting to pass but I couldn't calm down so I went back to Domi.
She just saw me crying and shaking : "oh my god - what happened?!"
I opened my hand that she can see the plec and fell down on my knees into her arm.
"omg - whose is it?" - "Uruha's"
She held me closely and Mo patted my head.
I was the happiest Girl alive I think.


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At all I think, Dortmund wasn't that good - for me in general it was really great to see them so close and dunno - but I seriously think the audience wasn't that good - the sound was shitty - the hall was really small - so many people had to lift out because they collapsed - everyone was pushing - actually it was terrible - my rips were blue and I couldn't breath normaly after.
And I felt like the band doesn't really had fun at all .









Gazette world tour 2013 (Germany) - Part 1 - our 5 days in Dortmund.

Weeell~
It's been a while.
At first I have to say - YES - my friends and I were those "14 years old smelling girls who want to have sex with the members and who already were there on Saturday"

Well, that's what all your rumors in the worldwide internet said - actually we were there of course for standing in the first row - but none of us want to have sex with the members or something.

We're not that kind of groupie or fangirl - we just wanted to see the men we really 'love' for a so long time, not only because they're looking plendid, nearby.
And I have to say, in the aspect that we were in Dortmund and Munich - and we stand in the first row in Dortmund and in the last row in Munich - Munich was the better concert at all but I will tell you detailed about it later
We're all in the age of 17-20 and we were taking showers of course, brushing our teeths - stuff like this.
I don't know why so many people in Europa thought they have the right to talk about what other people do.
I hate those "u're just jealous" talk - but honestly I think a lot of people were really jealous because they saw that there is no chance for them to go for the first row.
I mean, the next 5 People came one day after us lol.
So please stop talking so much fucking shit - sure we know, it is crazy to go there 5 days earlier, it was pretty stupid too - but it was worth it an none of you have the right to talk so much shit about it.
Keep it times at themselves.

So now - I will tell you a little bit about everything!

Have fun!
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Dortmund.

Saturday
So we started at Saturday 00:30 AM and drove about...I don't know...6-7 hours to Dortmund?!
What i definately know is that we reached the hall FZW at 8.20 AM haha.



Dortmund is really ugly but we had everything we needed.
A supermarket - Mcces 10-15 minutes away for going to toilet and...yeah...

so the first day we just chilled.
Actually 2 friends who were in Paris before wanted to come too but they didn't so a friend from Duisburg brought coffee to us and we chilled the whole day long haha

at 20.00PM there was a concert in the hall, it was actually quite cool to listen to the music of it haha.
About 50-100 people asked us what the fuck we are doing here but actually everyone thought it is quite cool and worthy of respect.

3 young student girls offered us that we can take a shower at their flat - it's only 10 minutes away.
They were so nice!

So at 23.00PM the "Rabenschwarze Nacht" (pitch-black night) started...to be honest...this was a little bit creepy - something like a 'fetish-party" hahaha.
A lot of Gothics etc - well actually it was cool to watch them because their outfit's looked really nice!

So when everybody tried to sleep, Domi and I took the first night watch - we wrote RPG the whole time, talked a little bit with the manager and stuff like this.
The music from the party was terrible, actually we just heard the bass haha.
Then a older man came to us and asked for a cigarette - we talked with him about 2 hours at all, he told us about his japanese friend, his favorite band - and we told him about our preferences and favorite band.
Actually he drank so much, he had to be so fucking drunk...but he wasn't...he was really kind and at 2-3 AM he bought a coffee at the inside/party and gave it to us - what a nice guy!

The party ended at sunday 6:00 AM and a woman gave muffins and a bottle champagne to us - it was her birthday I think - really nice!

So Kiara took the night watch and Domi and I fell asleep.

Sunday

Sunday actually was pretty boring the whole day - I slept until...I don't know...10-11 AM?
Not really long because Domi took my blanket and I woke up because it was so cold haha.

When I woke up I noticed that I get a cold so I was kinda pissed because I was afraid to get fever before the concert.

It was quite boring the whole day.
I guess at 16:00 PM a girl came from Essen I think to gave me a little soft toy for my mobile and kellogs smacks because she read on ask that I like them xD

She sat with us a while, we talked an listened to music and at 17:00 PM Mo Senpai and Tami finally arrived from Paris haha.

Tami went back home for 2 days because she was really ill and had to go to school or something - I don't know.

For 2-3 hours Mimi from Duisburg brought new Coffee and 2 more Girls came - so we were about 8-9 people on Sunday.

The two girls slept in their car and we had a lot of fun with Mo Senpai - for example with her horse masks haha
 

and we played some games until we fell asleept expect from Domi and me who took the night watch again lol...we wrote RPG the whole time.


Monday

We all woke up at 7:00 AM because there were construction work at the opposite of the hall.
Omg it was so terrible noisy.

4 geman girls with two japanese girls came - 5 girls from Finnland and 2 from poland - omg so we were about 22 pople on monday.

We didn't talked much to them so...yeah...I don't know.
I remember one of the german girls from the Deathgaze concert and one of the Polish girls was a big Uruha fangirl - and they were there with their mother I think who came every hour to watch for them.

Mo senpai had a fever and her friend Kuzu and we cared for her - actually she slept the whole monday haha

Oh - and Nia, Kiara an Amy went to one of the student girls for taking a shower ^-^

I guess it was the night were Ruki posted on Twitter "Hi Köln" and we were kinda excited haha.
He really wrote Köln...with ö...not cologne... first german post!




Tuesday

We had a really big and great breakfast - I really mean it, it was wonderful! haha



After that we chilled a little and then Domi, Mo and I drove to Kuzu for taking a Shower - omg we drove without a ticket with the train - so two stations before we had to exit there was a control so we quickly left the train lol

We walked those last two stations, met Kuzu and took a shower at her home.
She gave me so many flyer from japan - I'm so fucking happy! T^T

After we finished, we wanted to go back with the bus - we bought a ticket for a short route where was written you can drive with it for 30 minutes...
ha...hahaha...ha...after two stations the busdriver tossed us out and we walked to the next trainstation - omg this was karma - I mean it.

At least 5-10 more people arrived I think - I'm not sure...mh...

Wednesday

Well - Concertday!
We get up at 6 AM I think - I just remember, that when I woke up, to girls stand in front of the door saying "we don't know were we have to stand" - srsly?
We, who were already there, formed a perfect line.
This happened 2 more times lol.
Two girls said they are from Poland, when we ask them to please go away - so a polish girl came and tried to talk with them but suddenly they don't understand polish...wtf?!

Whatever, they went back.

I think at 8 AM Mo, Mizu, Nia, Amy and I went to Mcces and straighted our hair.
We came back at 9.30 AM an the barrier was already set up...what the fuck...I mean...8 hours left for the VIP entry..wtf...?


So only one or two of us sat there behind the barrier in the first row and the rest done hair and make up~

At...dunno...13 PM the Tourbus arrived - me, tami and Amy stand directly on the street so the bus couldn't pass - at first we where confused because we saw that there were already two busses - but then we leave the street.
Probably  Aoi senpai will remember me as the fat girl standing on the street and blocking the way haha

So then, a friend asked for me and Amy so we went there - I was kinda pissed off, how many people stand in front of the fence stalking Gazette while leaving the Tourbus - I randomly saw Kai and Kaolu when I passed and went for a friend .
I have to say: Kaolu, u'r bjutifuru bitch - please do my make up and hair.

Whatever.

About 16 PM the fanwar started because so many people let their friends stand with them - for example those both polish girls - unexpectedly they were 8 polish girls...wtf?! hahaha
So the german girls behind them started a fight lol
Even we, who were standing right at the first place and actually don't need to care about what happens behind us, tried to managed this little war.
One girl screamed: "You are in fucking germany and you have to do what we want!"
It surely sounds a little bit...weird...in germany...hahaha but the girls nearly cried and went back behind.

so then the GFC member had to take their passes - that was kinda complicated to but I have to say - my girls really managed this - when the GFC member went back from the line, of course the VIP people catched up - so we tried to take care for where they stand and screamed, that everyone should go back a little, that everyone can go back to their old place - a lot of work but it worked lol.

Then I wanted to go to the toilet lol
So Nia, a girl we met there and I started to walk and suddenly two japanese staffs with cameras followed us (am I creepy that I know one of them from MELT?)
He asked me for an interview and I was like 'no...' because I don't wanted but then he somehow talked so much and started the interview - I don't even noticed hahaha
He asked questions in english, I had to answer in german and then translate it again in english for him.
I...just talked so much shit omg...this..was so...embarrassing...
But he was really nice - he told me I look cute and said thank you..lol..wtf..i just wanted to pee :c

we waited until 17.30 pm - then our entry started - I gave my ticket and was the 4th person who entered this fucking hall.
I actually walked really slowly to Amy, Nia and Domi - but when we stand there - at the first row perfectly in front of Ruki - we just hugged each other and cried because we were so happy everything really worked like we expected it.
We fucking did it!